Posted on December 18, 2005
Because my middle sister had called and told me that the doctors were saying that the prognosis was “pretty grim” and that we ought to “prepare ourselves.” And although it’s been a while since we’ve heard the doctors say those kinds of things, it hasn’t been forever and we remember, oh yes we remember well, and so we knew exactly what he was saying when he said, “Let’s give it another 24-48 hours and then we’ll see,” which means that there’s nothing they can do any more and it’s all in God’s hands, unless you don’t believe in God, in which case I guess that means that there’s nothing anyone can do.
Nothing ventured nothing gained though, and so I pulled out the BCP which I’ve got a copy laying around and turned to page 458, the results of which you see on the post immediately preceding this one and gave it a rip and then when I was done asked the kids to give it a try if they didn’t mind because what could it hurt and anyways I’d leave the room while they thought about it, but I’d heard once that the prayers of a child go straight to heaven and she’s my sister, the one who held us all together when our parents died and that was a long time ago but you never forget how it felt, and who was there beside you.
And then I put it up there on a post last night after, because some of you would read it and what could it hurt? If you don’t put much stock in that sort of thing, I’m sorry to have bothered you, but as I said, she’s my sister.
And this morning the other sister called again and said that she’d good news for a change, that Ann’s bloodwork had stabilized and now they could give her some treatments for the things that ail her, which was better than before when there was nothing that they could do and they’d all but washed their hands of her. Cause for hope at last, although we are warned not to hope too gladly for there is much left to do and many ways that things could go wrong along the way, and we are nothing like out of the woods but where there is life there is hope. And there is also faith and there is also love, so these three at least remain.
The greatest of these of course, being love.
(I promise I’ll leave off this soon, realizing that it’s not why you come here, but for the moment I beg you that you might indulge me.)
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